Time...

Time goes on - marches forward. . . we look back and sometimes it makes us smile and sometimes makes us go deep within.  Do we ever shut the door to the past?  We try sometimes.  Unsuccessfully.  With the passage of time we often see things differently or maybe it's we see things more clearly.   Regrets?  Sometimes.  Not all times.

We learn when we look back.  Time gives - no affords us the ability to "see" objectively what happened - what was said.  What if?  Sorry - not possible.  The what if is always hanging there in space . . . in the mind.  What is accomplished by that?  Absolutely nothing.  Or maybe it's a cautionary thought.  An insight into the thought process....the regret.  There is no going back.  No going back.  Only possibility is to forgive one's self or if possible . . . saying I am sorry.  Taking responsibility for something that at the time was said or done in the heat of the moment or feeling trapped and felt like no way out.

If nothing else and we are strong enough, brave enough to face the past head on, then turn it into a learning experience.  And sometimes, it has to be just as it was.. . . in order to move on.  In order to shut one door so another could open.  Turn it into a positive.

There are so many words that are what I call "overrated  emotions".  "Perfection" is one of them. If you only seek perfection, where is there to go?  Only downward. I am only human.  We all are only human.  We make mistakes.  Hopefully, we learn from those mistakes or misgivings and move on.  Inner reflection is good.  However, dwelling there is overrated.  Do not get stuck in the consequences of it all.  Guilt is another overrated emotion.  Some guilt is good - keeps us from doing very obviously bad things.  Too much guilt?  Well that can be very destructive and keeps us in a place of fear.

Life is a balance.  A healthy balance of emotions.  We begin life so much as innocents.  The experiences we have as we grow older and, hopefully, wiser is a balancing act.  Looking back we can see the growth, the stumbling, the re-balancing.  In the end I KNOW I did the best I could with what I had.  AND I found the way to forgive, be transparent, LOVE and most of all be myself and forgive myself.

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