Always something ie the other shoe falls . . .

 Remember that little bump in the road . . . the one that took me into Uncharted Territory - the C word!!  in 2005 very early 2005 I ended up with very serious back surgery.  Started with sciatica which is symptom of larger issues especially with back/spine.  And yup that was it.  Had a micro surgeon who performed the long surgery.  Fused L4 & L5 for starters.  Then tried to open my spinal column with "cadaver" tissue to hopefully make the spinal column bigger as my spinal cord was being "choked".  The fusing (ie nuts & bolts) worked but widening the spinal column did not.  And altho my upper part of my spine had some issues they chose not to touch that area at all.

Post surgery they discovered other issues.  My rotator cuff on both arms needed to be repaired.  And, carpal tunnel on both wrists needed to be done.  Left hand was done first under only local amnestic - trust me not at all pleasant and I watched it all.  Right rotator cuff was the worse - that was the next surgery.  I told my two doctors please combine these surgeries so that I am under and do not have to go thru this again.  Hey it does not hurt to ask!  And the rotator cuff was done first and then Dr. Bone rushed in just in time to do the right hand carpal tunnel release.

And, was very please.  I felt finally I could walk and was in less pain then I had ever been.  The 2015 the dreaded C word.  A very strong protocol along with with shots of Neupogen to get my white cells active and not circle the drain.  I had to have it before I could have chemo treatments every three weeks.  That went on six months.  Now I find out what Neupogen did to me with lymphedema and now it just keeps giving - my nerves have also now been affected by Neupogen.  Where does it end? 

I am 80 years old.  I have done all the right things to be healthy.  I take ONLY 1 drug prescription for diabetes - border line but never blood sugars that are very high out of norms.  One med!  How many people can say that at 80 years old.  

I am angry!  I wanted the what ifs when I had my final chemo.  And was told to go out a live life!  And, little by little Neupogen has taken away so many things!  Ask the QUESTIONS - we deserve answers.  

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